Look Into My Kaleidoscope of Emotions, And Feel
05 - Such A Blur
Title: Such A Blur
By LissaChan
Rating: NC-17 for senseless smut ;)
Warning(s): M/m smut, OOC and AU (don’t kill me!)
Disclaimer: Blink 182 owns "Feeling This" and I’m so fucking happy to finally use this in a songfic.
A/N: I’m very sorry for a happy F-Stop, but I’m sick of him being so damn crabby! He needs to lighten up! Also I switch the sex on who Tom is singing too, to go along better with the story. *cracks whip at Mark, Tom, and Travis’ feet* Dance for me puppets!!
Beta: Chunk: *eyes water* that….was…wow
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F-Stop’s POV
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(Get ready for action)
I got no regret right now
(I'm feeling this)
The air is so cold and null
(I'm feeling this)
I have him pinned against the wall, my tongue gliding against his in an eternal dance we each know by heart. We pull the right strings on each other, eliciting gasps and groans from each other. He tastes so good.
Let me go in his room
(I'm feeling this)
I wanna take off his clothes
(I'm feeling this)
He eagerly leads me into his room, and pins me against the wall. I easily grab onto his legs and wrap them around my waist, holding him up by the ass as we heavily make out against his bedroom wall. He’s so light in my hands, but I still give him the fact that I’m still against the wall. His parents are gone for the summer, giving us all this space to cover.
Show me the way to bed
(I'm feeling this)
Show me the way you move
(I'm feeling this)
He shoves me onto his bed and I land on my back, bouncing a bit before he climbs on top, straddling my hard-on between his strong thighs. They have to be to withstand me. He has me shirtless and moaning as his teeth nibble and bite across my chest, teething my nipples just right to where I’m grinding against him. He’s such a cocktease.
Fucking is such a blur
(I'm feeling this)
I love all the things you do
(I'm feeling this)
I want him so bad it hurts and I know he’s not ready until he has bitten and tasted every inch of my body. Every time he does this, and it drives me up a wall by the time he reaches my cock. I nearly thrust my hips straight home when he takes me into his hot and sweet mouth. Hands are on my hips and my fingers are in his hair, encouraging him to deep throat me already. But then he hums low in his throat, making me yell out loud enough that if his parents were here they would be breaking the door down by now.
Fate fell short this time
Smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna
He has a very strong libido and I let him know that in the mix of my curses to him for making me come already. He just smiles that smug smile and I bite his lips while kissing him to taste myself. His hands grab onto mine, interlacing his fingers with mine. He can be so sweet when I’m angry with him.
Where do we go from here
Turn all the lights down now
Smiling from ear to ear
(I'm feeling this)
He’s back on me with a tube of lube he retrieves from a hidden place in his closet, though I enjoy the view of his fuckable ass as it wags in the air from him bending over to look for his secret place. He has cherry-flavored, my favorite. And this time he gives me a show of preparing himself for me. I’m completely hard before he’s inserted the third finger.
Our breathing has got too loud
(I'm feeling this)
Show me the bedroom floor
(I'm feeling this)
One minute he’s riding me while I thrust up into him, hands clenching his hips, the next I’m fucking him into the floor of his bedroom. He’s gasping and mewling, writhing under me as his hands are everywhere. He looks so cute when his bangs clump together on his sweaty forehead; he looks so young that way.
Show me the bathroom mirror
(I'm feeling this)
We're taking this way too slow
(I'm feeling this)
He wants to come in the bathroom down the hall and it’s all I can do to allow him to pull me out and take my hand. He quickly leads me down there and we continue our fun with him on the bathroom sink. God he makes me so fucking hot!
Take me away from here
(I'm feeling this)
I come for a second time and he loses it, coming so hard I feel it splash against my chest and neck. Nirvana is so much sweeter when he’s gently kissing me. When I’m back to reality I’m watching him watching me. His eyes are so dark they’re almost black; they do that whenever he orgasms. As he pants, he cups some of his cum from my chest and reaches behind him to smear it across the reflective glass. I burst out laughing in the midst of my own panting. Then I kiss him again as he chuckles low in his throat.
Fate fell short this time
Smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna
He’s just teasing me again. It starts out as gentle exploration of my chest and neck, but then I realize he’s actually getting me aroused again when he sinks his teeth on the right side of my neck. I cringe and buck upward to his hard-on, which I just noticed also. A loud cry escapes me and a moment of relief passes to know his parents are still away.
(Fate fell short this time
Smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna)
I’m addicted to his body, his kisses, his little noises he makes when I find a place on him he likes being teased; everything that is Richie I love. And as we reach our climaxes I’m letting him know I love him.
This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How can you say you meant anything
Different to anyone standing alone
On the street with a cigarette
On the first night we met
He tells me the house is different ever since we marked almost everywhere in it that weekend, and his parents are completely clueless to the fact that I’m there when they think he’s alone in his bedroom. It turns him on that we have to be secretive, even more when he tries to get me loud and I’m fighting against it.
All of this is the fault of one simple cigarette. He was holding it for someone and I thought it was his. I make a gripe about how macho he looks holding it faggy-style and he shot me right back down with a snipe about my obsession with the word. That has me frozen in shock, because that’s not like him, and I realize he’s with someone who isn’t Virgil. It’s his boyfriend at the time. I don’t think I was ever turned on as much as watching him make out right in front of me with the boy. Needless to say he didn’t go home that night with his boy toy.
Look to the past and remember and smile
And maybe tonight I can breathe for a while
I'm not in this scene I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you
I have to leave him to make an appearance at home, and it pains me to wake him so I can get out from under him. I give him a long and hard kiss, letting him know I’ll always be his and leave before it can get any further, as much as I truly wanted it to. I go to bed that night alone, but he’s in my dream world, enjoying a day in the sun with me at the beach.
Fate fell short this time
Smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna
It’s the school year now, which means we have to go back to our old rivalry selves. The last few days before we discussed about arguments we can have without hurting each other. And the angrier we are towards each other to the onlookers, the more love we have for each other is just between us.
Fate fell short this time
Smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna
It’ll be weekends that he’s free from patrolling, and I have a week’s worth of pent-up sexual frustration for him… I’m on him before he can open his bedroom door fully and I’m in him, lubed up and stretched, before his shirt is off… Let’s just say for the first few weeks he has difficulty walking normal.
Fate fell short this time (So lost)
Smile fades in the summer (And disillusioned)
Place your hand in mine (So lost)
I'll leave when I wanna (And disillusioned)
By Halloween I’ve had enough of this show we put on for everyone. I give him an ultimatum: either he fesses up to his friends or I do it my own way. He finds the later a better option, so come the Halloween Dance we show up, I’m a cowboy and he’s an Indian, but we’re holding hands. We’re also masked, but it’s easy to tell who we are.
Virgil wanted to throw up; Daisy and Freida are giggling blobs of goo, while Ebon, Rita and Madelyn look at me like I’m contaminated. Fine by me; I didn’t want to be their pawn for long anyway.
Fate fell short this time (Are we alone)
Smile fades in the summer (Do you feel it)
Place your hand in mine (So lost)
I'll leave when I wanna (And disillusioned)
We make a brief appearance and spend the rest of the night in my bed at my place. His mom will know by morning and little do we know she’ll support him all the way, but for right now it’s ‘us’ time, naked and cuddling. Slowly and ever the sneaky one between the two of us he’s biting me again around my neck. I can’t get enough of him when he does that.
Fate fell short this time (Are we alone)
Smile fades in the summer (Do you feel it)
Place your hand in mine (So lost)
I'll leave when I wanna (And disillusioned)
This time I have the upperhand. I pin him down, teasing him to where he’s writhing under me, panting and begging me to fuck him. I finally do a few minutes later, but gently this time, making it last so even he comes for the first time with me. His beauty almost hurts me eyes when he shrieks my name to the ceiling. I echo his passion with his name escaping mine.
Fate fell short this time (Are we alone)
Smile fades in the summer (Do you feel it)
Place your hand in mine (So lost)
I'll leave when I wanna (And disillusioned)
We spend every holiday together in that bed. He moves out within Easter of that first year and moves in with me, and every night he’s there to hear me whisper "I love you" into his ear and he’s always there to echo it back to me just before we drift off to dreamland…
He’s mine, I’m his, and nothing will ever change that.
Fate fell short this time (Are we alone)
Smile fades in the summer (Do you feel it)
Place your hand in mine (So lost)
I'll leave when I wanna (And disillusioned)
THE END