Lustful thoughts

The whispers became louder, but he still couldn’t understand a word....and he didn’t care at all.The arms began to rock him, while the whispering continued.....


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The night wasn’t easy for Toki.He had already jerked off five times that night. Several times he tried to close his eyes an sleep, but he couldn’t, he just couldn’t, it was that sound coming from the last room in the hallway.

The sound of an unplugged electric guitar been played. By who? No one else than a very nervous Skwisgaar. He couldn’t sleep either. Skwisgaar fingers played over and over again the shiny strings. Trying to compose new melodies, the more complicated the better, for several hours he practiced in mixolydian.His guitar was like a huge sponge that absorbed all his problems and turned them in to music,but this time it wasn’t working.Finally he tossed the guitar aside. –This is so fuckes....- Skwisgaar closed his eyes, there was a very easy solution for this – I ignores...-

The next day Skwisgaar did that. He acted in front of others like nothing really happened, and life was the usual(actually Nathan,Pickles and Murderface noted there was something wrong with Skwisgaar but didn’t have the balls to say a word). Toki was no different, he tried hard to concentrate during rehearsals, but twice he broke the strings causing a torrent of sarcastic comments coming from the man guilty of his condition.

Next day and the day after everything went “normal”,. And by normal i mean Toki masturbating in secret at his new gay fantasies and Skwisgaar trying to erase the words “I wants to fucks you” from his mind.

But the moment should come, sooner or later.

And that moment was before a concert in some strange country with one of those name no one can pronounce. Skwisgaar as usual was repeating his sacred manthra –Im the fastest guitarist alives, im the fastest guitarist alives...-when he was interrupted by heavy footsteps of Toki’s boots.

-Nathan says you hurries...- Toki tried to act cool but he couldn’t stop staring at Skwisgaar’s naked back.

-Ja, tells hims to waits – Skwisgaar was finishing the last details in the dethmake-up. But he saw that Toki wasn’t leaving.

-Why donts you leaves? ....faggot. –

-Don’ts calls me dat- Toki frowned.

-Then whats shoulds i calls you?- Skwisgaar left his chair and approached Toki, with a defiant look – Queers? Fags? Fruits? Sissys? ....-

-Fucks you Skwisgaar – Toki was getting very annoyed at Skwisgaar.
-Uh,tells me...Toki- Skwisgaar was enjoying this “ja, hates me, maybe thats the only ways i can stop thinkings of what you saids.”

But things didn’t work out as he tought.

-Yous treats me likes thats, trying to humiliate me, wells...-Toki’s pointer finger pushed Skwisgaar’s naked chest, while the must wicked smile one has ever seen formed in his face–I’ll makes you feels worsts...-

The folllowing was quick,Toki’s hand were placed in Skwisgaar’s shoulders, then he pulled him closer. Their lips met, Toki opened his mouth more and forced Skwisgaar to do the same.

Skwisgaar’s eyes were opened in surprise, he gulped, but what almost made him trhow up is that he did not only gulped his own saliva but Toki’s too. Skwisgaar felt nauseous, he as kissing a MAN, he was feeling his fricking Fu Manchu, his teeth,his tongue, his (surprisly soft) lips.Enough was enough! Skwisgaar placed his hands over Toki’s shoulders, and closed his eyes.

Then he kicked Toki in the balls.

- Faen! – Toki said as his hands grabbed his family jewels,his knees went weak
because of the pain and his legs blended.Slowly Toki laid in the floor, with a red face and little tears coming from his eyes.

-Fucks you! – Skwisgaar yelled at him while he passed over Toki, heading to the door.

But no,Toki’s revenge wasn’t over. He grabbed Skwisgaar by his calf making him fall. Skwisgaar would have broken his nose if it wasn’t because the whole room had a rug(Charles bright idea). Toki quickly climbed over Skwisgaar, and with one hand turned him over his back.

-Yous fuckins swedishs...- Toki grabbed him by the long and blonde hair,so hard that made Skwisgaar close his eyes and make a grimace of pain –I loves yous fuckins swedishs! –

Toki forced another kiss to Skwisgaar,once again his tongue was inside his mouth.Skwisgaar’s mouth was a mixtures of flavors that went from cigars,vodka,whisky,soy ice cream and make-up. Toki didn’t want to forget them because that’s how the man in his fantasies truly tasted like,and he was quite surprised after the following: Skwisgaar moaned.

A low moan came from Skwisgaar. His body was relaxing, the tension was leaving. Toki could swear Skwisgaar’s heart beats were as fast as his.More surprising was that the blonde “im a machos” swedish was returning the kiss.

Finally after a couple minutes Toki separated from Skwisgaar.

-Musts goes....- Toki got up and walked to the door –Yous makes ups...- he made some circular movements with his hands around his face – ....felts,fixes it-

Skwisgaar was left there in the floor, he was panting(!), and slightly blushed.

-Fucks yous!- Those were the last words Toki heard from Skwisgaar that day.

“Maybes it wasn’t my smartes moves” Toki tought as he walked to meet the rest of the band “But it will shows him”.His evil-dont-mess-with-me smile curled in his mouth and stayed there for the rest of the night.

Meanwhile Skwisgaar sat in the nearest chair. He was trying to assimilate what just happened.Did he had just...? did he? Was that so...? Finally the words of true came from his lips:

-It mades me feels ills,buts.....-

Skwisgaar suddenly felt like puking and he did.

In the restroom Skwisgaar whiped the puke from his mouth, and washed the one in his hair. He looked at the mirror, and there it was the reflection of a confused man.

-I can’ts enjoys its! – He yelled at himself. That thing he couldn’t do.. Skwisgaar Skwigelf, the fastest guitarist in the world, the man that broke Ron Jeremy’s record** on how many chicks were banged, the only and one Skwisgaar could not enjoy a kiss (that kind of kiss).

That night was hell for our blonde guitarist,and as soon as everything was over he left to Mordhaus, he was not in the mood for fan girls or getting wasted.

Freshly-out-of-the-closet Toki left too, he was starting to feel guilty about what he did. “Noes i fuckeds up everythings more...”

Nathan,Murderface and Pickles were confused too.

-What’s wrong with those two? – Nathan asked.

Pickles and Murderface shrugged.-I donth’n knowth, buth i justh wanth to go the nearsht bar.-

So they left. In the way Nathan suggested that maybe they were having their PMS.

-Men don’t have PMS douche bag-

-Uh...yeah, i...aahh....i forgot.-

Sometimes Pickles was amazed of the others(and his own) stupidity,but something about this situation was quite familiar, but he couldn’t recall it “maybe the booze will help me remember.”

3 days passed and neither Toki or Skwisgaar left their rooms.

Finally Toki was the brave one. He left his room quietly, trying not to disturb the sleeping people in Mordhaus. There were things he should fix, for the sake of himself and the band.

He knocked the door, but it was open. Toki pushed it and entered the darkened room, there in front of him was a very high(crying) Skwisgaar.

-Whats you wants?- Skwisgaar asked, as he cleaned his face.

-Wells...i wants to says sorries about last times- Toki forced an are we cool? smile.

But he got no response from the devastated Swedish, instead he backed off as Skwisgaar approached him.

-I don’t knows what to does. If hates yous of whats...- This time it was Skwisgaar finger pushing Toki’s chest.

-Hates mes?-

-Ja...hates yous. Becauses, i enjoys thats- Skwisgaar eyes went shifty –Did you heards thats? I enjoyeds it...-

-Yous kiddings!- Toki pushed Skwisgaar away. But he didn’t move. Skwisgaar was truly angry.

-Yous goings to makes me gays! – He clenched his teeth – And i can’t be gays! I likes to fucks girls!-

-So whats? Me too.-

-No you don’ts – Skwigaar pushed Toki

-Yes i does – Toki pushed Skwisgaar this time.

-You kissed me – he hissed and pushed Toki.

-So? Yous looks for thats – This time Toki pushed to hard,suddenly everything became a domino effect, Skwisgaar lost his balance and then grabbed Toki by his shirt, making him fall with him, and then both of them were on the floor,face to face, bodies together,lips together,mouths,tongues and before Skwisgaar could react he was making out with his partner.

They panted and moaned to each others mouths, stroke each others backs and pressed each others crotches-and that’s when Skwisgaar stopped and pushed Toki away.
-NOES! – Skiwsgaar crawled away from Toki – noes noes noes-

Toki was panting and stared at his very scared friend.

-Leaves! Leaves! –Skwisgaar pointed at the door. Toki, who wasn’t sure what was going stayed.

-I tolds yous to leaves!! – Skwisgaar yelled at him. But Toki didn’t moved,instead he crawled to Skwisgaar’s side.

-You gots scared? –He asked.

Skwisgaar who was in the verge of getting high(crying) looked at him,but his eyes didn’t showed anger anymore.

-I...yes.-

Skwisgaar got scared, really scared not because of feeling Toki’s erection against him but his own. He got aroused. And that scared the shit out of him.

So both of them stayed like that for hours, silent, sitting side by side.

Toki didn’t try any moves, neither Skwisgaar.

-I’m hungrys- announced Toki.

-Me too.-Skwisgaar said.

But none of them wanted to move.

-What do we does know? – Toki asked with a sigh-What are you goings to does?-

Skwisgaar sighed too, and rubbed his eyes. The stress was there again.

-You knows i haves crushs for yous.-

The Swedish looked at Toki,no smile no nothing, his face was blank from any emotion.

-Wants to be with mes? –Toki asked. He knew there were only two answers to it, and the negative one was the must probable.

He closed his eyes and waited. More hours in silence passed, and so Toki thought “maybes thats his way of saying noes...”, feeling defeated, and with that characteristical ache in the chest, the one you feel when you are rejected he got up.

Suddenly just when Toki was about to cross the door....

-Ja...- Skwisgaar said with a very low voice,almost a murmur.

To be continue....

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*The Mixolydian mode is a musical mode or diatonic scale. It has the same series of tones and semitones as the major scale, except the fifth (dominant) note is taken as the tonic or starting (beginning) pitch of the scale. It may also be considered a major scale with the leading tone moved down by a semitone.

**Ron Jeremy has appeared in over 1900 porn films, and he claims that he had sex with over 4000 women(and counting).