Regret Me

Title: Regret Me
Pairings: Zabius/Lerrias
Ratings: NC-17
Warnings: PWP,
Disclaimer: Standard disclaim, Zabius, however is MINE and Lerrias is shared with uppertorso
Author's Notes:
SO! This is a gift muselet because she hasn't been feeling good. I asked her what she wanted and she wanted BACR smut which this is.
Pure drabble, doesn't ever happen in the CM universe but certainly a common occurrence between Zabius and Lerrias.
ENJOY! ^^


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Zabius smiled as he and I lay naked in our bed, the sheets pooled around our tangled legs and the stars of the universe twinkling in through our window he demanded be installed in every bed-chamber and covered the span of our entire wall, Irk rotating below us as we were secreted away in our main chamber in the Massive. He ran an idle claw up and down my side, both of our spine-incasing gone for the night, the troubles of the day and the weeks and the years etched in our armor that lay beside our bed. I watched him as I rested my cheek on Zabius' other arm and purred.

I felt Zabius trace some of the few scars along my skin and he closed his eyes.

"You're upset," I cooed, my antennae perking and rubbing across Zabius' skin in a gentle caress.

"Mnn," Zabius replied in an idle thought, his claw focusing on a spiral scar carved into the right side of my chest, and we were both remembering how it was gotten and why I had even gotten it at all.

"Zabius," I called out again as he opened his eyes and I moved my claw to cover Zabius' own.

"Do you sometimes regret me?" Zabius whispered, his claw pressing against my chest to feel the beating of the heart he would do anything for pound against his palm.

My eyes narrowed and I gripped Zabius' hand tighter as I pulled myself in close.

"This is about what that Ambassador from Par said," I hissed, beyond aggravated that the events of earlier today still lingered in my mate's memory.

Zabius snorted in amusement and pressed his forehead against mine.

"I honestly don't care that some uppity ambassador called me a brute. But..."

"I don't really care he called me your consort, Zab," I soothed, rubbing my hand along Zabius' arm and purring soft enough that he may not have heard me. The Ambassador from Par had decided that our races could never be at peace since he seemed to think that Zabius was treated like a god even though he was nothing more than a "brute" and that people like me, people with intelligence, were only given respect because we ended up in positions as consorts to the brutes with power.

Zabius shifted, the smooth sheets sliding across our skin as the shadows danced across our bodies and made us younger and older at the same time.

"I do, Lerrias, you're my mate, my equal in all things..."

I chuckled and lifted his claw, kissing the missing digits and the ones that still remained.

"My love, we have been called far worse than brutes and consorts. And I'm not worried about a war with Par, they ruined their own negotiations."

Zabius moved so that I was now completely against the bed, and he was hovering above me. He frowned and leaned down, kissing me, and I smiled wrapping my arms around his neck.

"I love you," my sweet twin whispered as he pulled away.

"You know I love you," I whispered back and ran my foot against the back of his leg and I let an idle claw trail along his shoulders.

"I think I would be lost without you, if you weren't here Lerrias, I think I would have died long -"

"Zabius stop," I gave a light push to his shoulders and he conceded, sitting up as I did as well. I sighed and sat up, the sheets now completely pushed off our bodies. He looked at me, sadness lingering in those black orbs that could make me drown as I gazed into them. "This... Zabius, this is not the first time either of us have been called the other's consort. Why is this particular one bothering you?" and I did want to know, why this one Ambassador had actually gotten to my mate's thoughts and troubled him in such a way.

He reached out for my claw, kissing my own missing digits and then gazed out the window, with those eyes that I loved so much, that had dictated so much of our lives and our empire.

"Zabius...?" I whispered and he turned back to me, his head bowed.

"If I weren't a black... half the troubles you have gone through would not have happened."

"But you are, just like I should have never been a crimson. But here we are, mismatched and legends."

"When we die we'll be more myth than legend."

I grinned and gently pulled on Zabius' antennae, purring as he grinned at me, the shadows of the day, of our lives lingering in the pools that so many enemies cried were soulless. They locked with mine and I could see the burning there, and I knew a gasp escaped my lips and I hugged my mate and twin close, hiding his face in my neck.

"Zabius, I don't plan on dying anytime soon," I soothed, knowing that that was the fear, the burning I had seen in his eyes. I hugged him tighter and he wrapped his arms around my waist. "And I would only die with you by my side. Every war... yes, yes there's just as much risk as the ones before it and the ones that will come after it... We aren't as young as we used to be but Zabius, Zabius my love, when we die it will be together. What can I say that will take this weight off your shoulders?"

And that was what it was, what it always was. My mate always going out onto the battlefield because that was where he felt truly needed and I would be in the ships, watching all of them. And we both felt the pain as our honorable soldiers died for the empire, and we feared that every battle would be the last time we saw each other.

And that weight rested on both of us, on his shoulders and in my mind, only, it was my turn to soothe him.

"Take my control Zabius," I whispered, stroking his spine. A snort of amusement was hot against my neck and was my response. I lifted his head and kissed him before pushing his willing body back against the pillows before straddling his waist, smiling. "You will always have control in this, in us."

"I rather you just pampered me Ri," my mate chuckled, running an idle claw along my hips.

"Oh, I think that could easily be arranged," I cooed, digging my claws into Zabius' hips, he took in a deeper breath but otherwise felt no pain. I could never quite pull off the act as he could, the desire to hurt him, the ability to do it not within me. But he needed this, needed me. I locked eyes with him and he gave a soft moan as I ran my claws up and along my chest, rubbing them along the collar bone he adored to bite and kiss so much. I kept my eyes locked with his while I swayed and rolled my hips near his hardening arousal.

"Ri," he groaned.

I leaned forward and took his claws, resting them on my hips and purring.

"Whatever my Tallest desires," I whispered, "I will be sure to yield," I moaned heavily as I knelt down and licked his collarbone.

He groaned in pleasure, his grip tightening on my hips and the knowledge that he could crush my pelvis if he actually ever used real force turned me on something fierce as I moved my claws to rest on his shoulders, his erection bumping against my ass and I nearly whimpered with anticipation.

"I only do what I can for my empire," he groaned back.

"And your empire is more than grateful and certainly," I pushed back against his length, groans escaping both our lips and we hadn't even really begun, "willing to bend to your desires my Tallest."

He chuckled as he pulled me in for a kiss and I sighed before pulling away and sitting a bit back. I ran my claw down my body, once again keeping my eyes locked with his. I moaned as I wrapped my claw along my length while I inserted a finger into myself to prepare myself for Zabius.

"Ohnn... ah... Just picturing you taking aaa," in and out I pushed my self onto a second digit, "firm claw with your empire, my Tallest, and making it oh! Yield to your every whim, bending it with such strong nnn claws!" I tried to keep my eyes open as I prepared myself for Zabius, my mate panting in sync with me. "Oh my Tallest it makes me so devoted."

I knew Zabius was struggling to keep from flipping us around and just pounding into me, making me mindless goosh, so as a reward I bent down and kissed him, his mouth opening to mine and our tongues wrapping around one-another's the heated cavern I loved so much always welcoming me home. I inserted a third finger, going faster than I should have in anticipation of Zabius filling me.

"Nnn, my Tallest," I groaned in the kiss as I rocked against my hand. Zabius' grip on my hips was near bruising, he wanted me to have my fun since it was rare for him to just let me do everything for him and I lavished my attention on him.

"With such fervent Irkens in my empire," Zabius groaned, "I'm happy to take on the stress of my daily life."

I groaned, closing my eyes before pulling my claw away and kissing him, holding his length as I eased onto it.

"Ahh! Ah Zabius!" I knew I had broken character, but the feeling of him in me made all else beyond my care.

He pulled me down, kissing me as I had sheathed him in me to the hilt. I panted and kissed him again.

"Lerrias," he whispered as he sucked on my antennae.

"Mmmnh, Zabius," I had to continue, I had to make sure he didn't turn us around so he was above me. I braced my claws on his shoulders and lifted myself off of his shaft before easing back down onto it. We groaned in unison and up and down and up and down I rocked onto him.

"Lerrias," he hissed in pleasure as he kept his claws on my hips to help support my weight.

"Ahn!" I moved and kissed him working into a faster rhythm. The pleasure seeped into my mind, wrapped around my frequency and tingled my wires.

I felt him move and angle his hips and I nearly screamed in surprise as I pushed down hard on my own prostate. I gulped for air as I looked at Zabius in surprise, a grin on his own panting lips.

"I wouldn't want my empire to not reap the rewards for their devout actions," he purred and I gave a soft chuckle, taking a deep breath as I lifted my hips again and slammed back down, screaming his name.

Everything went to the action of taking Zabius in and out, and out and in, and up and down, in me.

"Oh... oh goddess... oh goddess!"

"Lerrias, oh goddess Lerrias I love you!"

"Zabius," he was helping me move now I felt a sure and strong claw around my own erection pumping me in time with my thrusts.

"Oh! I-I'm almost," I whimpered and he kissed me hard and I could feel every wire in me strain at the feel of climax rising higher and higher and maddening my senses.

"Come for me Lerrias," he growled near my antennae.

I screamed, as I came, calling out the name that I was most devoted too, hearing my own name moaned back at me.

I fell, I reached peak and fell, and the warmest arms I adored caught me, just hearing the pounding of a heart beneath me.

I don't remember how long I was like that, only that when I was finally able to think Zabius had pulled out of me and cleaned us both up, my cheek once more resting against Zabius' arm, and much happier black eyes gazing at me with adoration.

"I love you," Zabius and I whispered at the same time.

"Zabius, sleep, rest."

"How very odd to hear you say that to me," Zabius chuckled and I stuck out my tongue, he grabbed it and I grinned as he replaced his claw with his mouth and I sighed into the kiss that we leisurely shared. "You'll be here when I wake?"

I smiled as I leaned in for another kiss, tightening our tangled legs more as he pulled me closer to him. A purr escaped his lips and his eyes slowly closed. After a few moments I saw his shoulders ease and the tension fall from them and I sighed in relief. I moved so I was leaning over him, his arm thrown across my hips and I kissed his antennae.

"I will never regret you."