It's Lonely at the Top

"Jon!" Emily sat bolt upright in her bed, breathing hard, clutching the sheet to her chest. "Damn it. So close yet so far." She said with a frustrated sigh as she brought her knees up to her chest, laying her head on her knees.

"Another dream?" asked her bed partner sleepily.

"Yes. It's like he wants to reach out yet is hiding at the same time." Emily said in frustration.

"At least he know he's alive. We haven't found his body. And your dreams are only getting stronger, not weaker." An arm snaked about her waist, Emily's bed partner shifted to sit up and placed a kiss on her shoulder before pulling her close.

Emily responded by laying back against her partner, letting their legs entwine as they snuggled closer. The chest that pillowed her head rose and fell in a gently rhythm, as arms slide along her sides, just as gently tracing the scars on her body before encircling her waist.

"You have to be up for duty in…. about four hours. You need to be sleeping" a voice murmured in Emily's ear.

"I know. I just can't seem to fall back asleep after these dreams. You know how they affect me." Emily replied. "It'sn aln almost a month and a half since Jon vanished. No leads, nothing. Except these dreams."

"I know." The voice murmured again.

Another kiss was placed along her shoulder, a little farther up then the last. Hands moved along her skin. One sliding up to cup her breast, fingers idly playing with the hardening pebble of flesh. The other hand slide down to between her thighs, fingers slipping between her folds.

Emily gasped softly arching her back in response to the pleasurable caresses. "Zan! You don't… what about…." The rest was lost to her soft moans.

"Ssshhh… I want to. I know you'll sleep afterwards. As for your brother, I talked with him before I came to bed. He said he'd deal if it meant you got some sleep. And he knows that when you leave I'll be joining him in his bed. But don't worry, it will be for sleep. At least until we both wake up that is." Her words were spaced between kisses. She had shifted so that Emily was laying on the bed as she trailed the kisses down her body.

There was little Emily could say about it, because she knew that Zan was right. She moaned in pleasure as Zan found those secret places that brought such reactions from her. Though a distant sense of guilt colored everything. To be here, safe in her bed, enjoying the pleasures of the flesh with her long time lover, the woman she shared with her brother.

"Quite that." Zan said looking up from where she rested her head on Emily's thigh, her hand caressing the inner skin of Emily's other thigh. "Feeling guilty about this isn't going to help."

"I know, but I can't help it.." Emily said with a groan then gasped as her lover found a way to distract her. No more words were said between the two women. The only sounds were from the aquarium filters in the other room and the soft moans, gasps and soft cries of pleasure.


Hours have passed as Zan held her sleeping lover in her arms. Though she was tired she could not sleep and it had nothing to do with the fact that Emily was a tosser at night. In fact, at this moment Em was snug up up against her. Em's head resting against her chest, arms about her waist. She glanced over at the clock. In a few more minutes Em was to be getting up anyways. Running her hand though Em's hair she started to coax her awake.

"Hey lover, time to be getting up."

Em snuggled in closer, her head pillowed between Zan's breast. "I don't want toe mue mumbled sleepily.

"I know. But I'm sure Will would like to get off duty and get some sleep." Zan said with a soft chuckle.

"Will just wants to snuggle up to you." Em said, a little more awake but not moving.

"Doesn't surprise me. But that's gonna have to wait till I wake up later. I'm too tired for anything this morning." Zan said with a yawn.

"You never went to sleep did you" Em said as she lifted her head and gave Zan a kiss.

"No, too many things on my mind."

"Then why-"

"Because you needed the sleep more then me."

Em let out a sigh. "Zan…"

"Don't 'Zan' Me. I know what I was doing. Now get up. I'm sure you want to get a shower before you get armored up."

"Your right I do. Join me?" she said with a playful smile on her lips.

"And wake up completely? No way. Then you'd be squirming at your duty station this morning. I'll get up when you get ready to go." She said reaching down under the covers to caress her lovers back. "Now get up you."

"Alright, alright. I'm getting up." Em said in a false protest as she crawled out from under the covers and headed towards the bathroom. She looked at the clock on her way. "I still had about 20 minutes before I had to get up."

"Yeah, and miss breakfast."

"True." Was all that she said.

The sound of water running was relaxing. Closing her eyes Zan let herself doze some till Em was ready to go. She was awoken a few minutes later as Em sat down on the bed and gave her a kiss.

"I'm ready to go, so get up sleepy head."

Zan just grunted and stretched, the sheets sliding down her body as she did. She yelped and curled back up when Em stuck her metal covered hand on her backside. "Ayiiee! That's Cold!"

"Not for me it isn't."

"Well it is from this side of things!"

"Come on." She said getting up. She still had to put her hair up so the helmet part of the armor could go up. "If you don't get up, I'll send Will in here to get you up."

"I'm up already" Zan grumbled flipping back the covers and reaching for her silk Kimono. "The last time that happened I was out of the bed and on the floor. Didn't help that he had just come in off of patrol." She watched as Em put her hair up in a French roll and the metal of the armor slid up her head to cover everything. "That never fails to amaze me." She commented. The kimono she was wearing was black with stylized silver wolves on it. She had gotten the twins similar ones but with hawks on them instead of wolves.

"What does?" Em said checking herself over in the mirror. She saw Zan walk up behind her in the reflection.

"How that armor of yours seems to flow over your body as you armor up and then de-armor." Zan said, running a hand along her shoulder and down her back.

"I know what you mean. Over 10 years in it and I'm still amazed myself. Come on. I'm hungry and want something before I get on duty." Em said turning to leave.

Zan followed along behind her, stopping long enough to grab her bag, which had all her dirty clothes in it.

"Leave it, I'll ask one of the staff to pick it up and get them clean for you." Em said as she paused in the doorway.

"OK." Zan said dropping it right next to the door.

The two women walked down the hall of the private quarters, Zan in the black and silver kimono and barefooted and Em in her armor. Em paused lenouenough for Zan to key in the code to unlock Will's door. As she did Mark was just heading down the hall to his own room.

"If you want some action why not join me" he comed wed with a smirk.

"Mark, If you were the only being left in the universe, I'd beg, borrow, steal, find or create a vibrator or dildo before I have anything to do with you." Zan said.

"aww, too much of a man for you am I?" he responded.

"Not even a man." She returned entering Will's quarters and closing the door.

"Don't even start with me Mark. You'd end up a bloody pulp by the time she got done with you, after I beat you first."

He just grumbled under his breath as he entered his quarters. "damned lesbians."

She just gave him a look before heading on after hearing the lock click on her brothers door.

After Em had finished a cup of coffee and a pastry she headed to the control room. Will was at his station, his chin propped on his fist. He looked both tired as well as bored. After an incident with a spilled coffee cup, no beverages were allowed anywhere near the work stations. But there was a table in the hall that led to the commanders office that had a coffee pot, and everything that went with it. As long as the drink wasn't taken to the work station it was fine.

"Morning Sis." Will said as glanced at her while stretching.

"Morning Lil Bro." She replied taking her seat at her station and logging in. "Anything going on?" looking over the log for the night.

"Not a thing. It's quiet. Too quiet almost." 'the only thing of interest was you and Zan last night.' He sent to her privately.

'Sorry' she replied.

'Don't worry about it, Zan spoke with me before heading to your room. So I was prepared to deal with it.' He told her. "If your logged in, I'm heading out." He said aloud.

"Yeah. Night Will." 'Zan's already in your room. If she's asleep, then let her sleep. She stayed awake last night.'

"Night." 'I will' with that he stood up and left, biding the others on duty a good night.

When he reached his room, he unlocked it and entered, making sure to re-lock it behind him. It wasn't that he didn't trust anyone there, it was more for privacy then anything else. Passing though his sitting area, he left the lights off. He knew this room better then any in Hawk Haven, with the exception of the Workshop. He headed to the bathroom to grab a quick shower before joining Zan in bed. It was his habit to get one before and after de-armoring.

After the shower he stood in the door of the bathroom, the light behind him illuminating his bed softly. He studied the curves of his lover as she slept, a smile coming easily to his lips as he did. He never admitted he found her quite beautiful when he first met her way back, just before the modifications. The years, while not always pleasant for her graced her with a maturity that he has only seen in one other. Shutting of the light he walked to the bed and slipped in.

In response to him getting in the bed, Zan woke enough rolled over and snuggled closer to him, throwing one leg over his. Even in her sleepy state she had the ability to arouse him. She had a favored sleeping position which he didn't mind at all. Shifting in the bed he settled her on his chest as lay on his back. She shifted sitting up slightly as she mounted him then lay back down again, her head tucked under his chin. Soon enough, both were soundly asleep.