It will be your Dishonor

Ron awoke very early the next morning it is still dark out, though he can't tell, Kim and Yori on either side and his head felt like it was sitting in two. He groaned and tried to get up, but both of his arms were pinned by the two heavy objects on either side so he couldn't. What happened last night? he asked himself and began to go through the late afternoon and all through the evening in his head. Ok, I had detention after school. Then I came home and found that mom had left a note on the table, came up to my room and then... he draws a blank, trying to remember what happened to him. On his left, Kim moved, Ron jumped as much as he could, despite the fact that he was pinned, luckily, neither Kim nor Yori wake up.
"Rufus!" Ron wispers, the naked mole rat looks up from his small bed, obviously annoyed that his sleep has been disturbed
"Rufus, the light" figuring that this will be the only way to get back to sleep, Rufus gets up and jumps up to the light switch, nothing happens. He jumps down and picks up a flashlight, shining it at Ron, who is still naked.

Ron can now clearly see the outlines of two people on either side of him, but can't tell who they are until the light shines near his head and onto a head full of Red hair? he looks at the other one and the light follows him, this one he can see more clearly Yori? No way Ron tries desperatly to free himself. It takes a few minutes but he manages to get both arms free and gets out of his bed.

After scrounging up some clothes, Ron takes one last look at the two women sleeping on his bed and even though he has a guess as to what they did, he covers them with a blanket and looks at the clock, which reads 4:55 AM. Before he walks out, alone, he places his cell phone on his desk, not wanting to be disturbed. Rufus sees that Ron is walking out and runs after his friend.

Ron heads out of his house, still wondering what happened last night, but all his thoughts lead him back to one inevitable conclusion, Kim took advantage of me, again
"Why do I let that girl do that to me continusly? Why can I never see it coming?" after heading to Bueno Nacho and finding it closed, Ron heads for the park.

On his way, he runs into a cop, who is doing early morning rounds
"Hey you" Ron looks up, his hands in his pockets "What are you doing out so late?"
"Trying to think" Ron answers and walks on.

Kim wakes up about and hour later, finding the bed she is sleeping in devoid of Ron.
"Ron?" she calls out into the darkness, no answer. She looks around the room and sees that his clothes are gone as well as Rufus. Kim panics and grabs her Kimmunicator, which she quickly remembers, she left at home for a reason. She is about to head downstairs to call him when she spots his phone on the desk. Picking it up, she calls Wade

"This had better be important" the super genius groans, obviously Kim woke him up
"It is. Can you find Ron?"
"Gimmie a minute" he yawns "I gotta warm the gear up. I'll track his cell"
"Don't bother, I have it. He's not at his house and he never wakes up this early" there is fear in her voice
"Ok, got him. He's at the park"
"Ok, thanks" that wasn't what she was expecting to hear and in all honesty, she would have preferred to hear that Drakken or someone had captured him. She quickly wrote Yori a note, in case she woke up while Kim was out and after grabbing a pair of Ron's pants and a jersey, seeing as she had left all her clothes at her house, she ran out as fast as she could.

"I don't know what to do Rufus. I love Kim, but at the same time, I can't think about her without thinking about what she did to me"
"RON!" Kim calls. Seeing her run towards him, he gets up and begins to walk away from her, heading in the opposite direction. Kim sees this and doesn't care, she lunges at him.
"Kim, get, off me!" he pushes her off and stands up to brush himself off
"What is it?" she prays it's not her
"As if you don't know"
"What?"
"What happened yesterday?"
"What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean, I remember my day perfectly, up until just after I got home from school. Care to fill in the blanks?" he sneers
"I... You... We..."
"We what? Had sex? Do you think that I forgive you because of it?"
"I don't understand you. You were so willing yesterday"
"Huh?" Kim sits down on the bench, Ron follows
"I was devestated, I felt so bad about doing what I did to you, but I just couldn't bring myself to break it off with Yori, so I thought that maybe if..."
"We had a threesome everything would be ok?"
"No, but you wouldn't leave me at the very least" she hangs her head
"Kim, what you did was the last straw. Look at all I do for you, I help you chase bad guys all over the world, put my life in mortal danger, I do all this, for you and this is how you repay me? Cheating on me with one of my good friends, well, soon to be ex good friends" he corrects himself
"I'm sorry! The first time I didn't know what I was doing and I couldn't control myself. How about this, I'll break it off with Yori..."
"You still don't get it, do you? I don't care about what you do now, I care about what you did THEN. Kim, you can do whatever you want, but we are through. With time, I might be able to forgive you, but what I said the other night hasn't changed. If I ever forgive you, we can be friends again" he stands up "Don't speak to me until I speak to you. I'm going for a walk around the park, I'll be home in an hour and I expect you and Yori to not be there, or I'll call the cops, after all, you did break in yesterday" he walks off, leaving Kim clutching her hand over her heart, which felt like it had just broken in two.

On her way back to Ron's place, Kim phoned Wade
"What up, Kim. Find Ron?"
"Uh, no. Wade book a ticket for one to Japan, Yori said that she'll be going home today"
"Okay" she hangs up.

"Hello, lov..." Yori starts as Kim walks into the room
"Don't" she holds up her hand "Just don't. We are through, ok. Because of what we did, I lost the only man who ever really loved me and I blame only myself" she stops to calm herself down "Wade booked you a flight home, it leaves in two hours. I'll take you back to my place so you can gather your clothes"

After Yori leaves, Kim lays down on her bed, trying not to think about anything that even remotly to do with Ron, but it isn't easy everything reminds her of him, school... jr prom, where they first kissed.... she starts to get hungry and her mind dirfts to food, which leads to Bueno Nacho, Ron's favourite hang out. She soon looses all control and begins to sob uncontrollably.

Ron is having a similar time, on the one hand, he is madly in love with Kim, but he won't bring himself to admit it. On the other hand, Kim both lied to and cheated on him, several times! Part of him wants to run into her arms and take her back, he misses stroking her hair, smelling the beautiful scent that eminates from her bo... NO! Must stand strong. She has taken advantage of me for the last time and I will not....

(Enter Ron's head) Two Ron's step into the light from the darkness around. One looks like regular Ron, the other is the same, only with a distinctly darker aura.

"We should take her back, if we don't, we'll never forgive ourselves!" the regular starts, the darker responds
"NO! She used and betrayed us. If we take her back, then we'll only prove how weak we truly are"
"WE LOVE HER!"
"I'm not denying that. But, we have to consider how we will look in her eyes, if we take her back now, she will over joyed, but she can't fail to notice that we gave in and we will look weak and easy to take advantage of and she will continue you take advantage of us, knowing that she can and we will just take it"
"We have to take her back, It's not an option. She loves us, look at what happened, she was almost ready to get on her knees and beg for us"
"I won't dispute that, but look at it this way, if we take her back now, we lose out. I'm not saying we should never take her back, but give it time. Let her think about what she has done"

(The two continue to argue. Fade out to the real world)

Monday at school, Kim is nowhere to be found. Ron tries to make it look like he's not looking for her as best he can in case he actually finds her, but she is in none of her classes the whole day.
Monqiue walks up to Ron
"Have you seen Kim?" Ron ignores her "Hey! Ron! Hello?"
"No, I haven't and go away"

Bonnie makes the worst mistake of her life when she walks up to Ron after school
"So, where was Kim today?"
"I don't know"
"Right. You two are tight, everyone knows it"
"Bonnie, go away"
"No, she has missed the last three practices. Tell me where she is. Stop hiding her!"
"I'm not. I don't know where Kim is" Ron does his best to keep his cool
"You do too. You two do everything together. Now where is she?"
"BONNIE... I don't know"
"Liar, you do too. I can see it on your face"
"Look I don't know where Kim is and I really don't care"
"Aww, you two having problems? Well, by all means don't let me infringe on your problems" she looks at Ron, who is trying to ignore her "HEY, LOOK AT ME! I don't care if you are having problems, but you tell her to get her ass in gear or..."
"Why don't you tell her?"
"Me? As if I'd be caught dead at her house. You two are a couple and you have to pass the message to her"
"I don't have to"
"Yes, you do. You're her BF"
"No, I'm not" Ron lets his head hang, Bonnie is taken aback
"What, she finally dumped you sorry ass?"
"Don't go this route with me"
"I mean it took her this long to..."
"I dumped her, ok? It wasn't working out"
"What, did she cheat on you or..." Ron turns to her "She did, didn't she? Oh that girl. Well you were to much of a loser any..." Ron has heard enough and rears up a punch and lets it fly, but stops right before he hits her
"No, I won't" he gets an idea "Look can we talk?"
"Why would I want to be seen with you, much less talk?"
"Because, Kim hurt me and I want to make her see, or at least think that I've moved on"
"Well, since you put it that way, Come over later, you can talk to Bonbon" she smiles at him and walks off.

"Ronald?"
"Yeah, mom?"
"Kimberly called for you today, several times" Ron walks off
"Don't you want to hear what she said?" Ron ignores her and walks to his room.

Checking his email, he finds almost a dozen messages from Kim, he deletes them all, then a new one pops up, against his better judgement, he opens it.

People say that in this world, unspekable evils are commited, evils people wish had never happened or had done differently, but that isn't the case. We cannot travel to our past and undo the things we have done, but what we can do is look to the future and try to improve ourselves.

"That was beautiful Kim, but doesn't change my mind" he moves his mouse to delete it, but stops, deciding to keep the message.

Kim looks hopefully at her screen, she figures that Ron should be home by now and checking his email. Why did I do that? Why did I want Yori so badly I was willing to risk losing Ron? Oh well, I'm done with her. I swear that if I get Ron back, I will be more careful and never do something like that again, ever, ever, ever.

Ron is browsing the net when he gets yet another email from Kim, he sighs and opens it

I'm sorry. That is a phrase that is tossed around like an old pair of clothes. People use it so much that it has lost most of it's meaning. To say I'm sorry means you are willing to say the lamest thing to get out of whatever. To truly be sorry, one must imply it in their actions as well as their words and never forget what they have done. When one does something so bad that a simple sorry would be the same as look what I did, one must hang their head in shame and try to make amends and earn the forgiveness of those they hurt, even though that may take a lifetime to achieve. Part of this process is to put a stop to what happened and start to realize what they did and why.

Ron reads on when the phone rings
"Hello?"
"Hey Ronny" it's Bonnie "I had a thought, why don't we meet in the park, by the lake around 7?"
"Sure Bonnie"
"K, see ya then" she hangs up "Hmm, why don't I mess with Kim?" she smiles and picks up the phone.

Kim hears her phone ring and dives for it
"Ron?"
"Sorry, K, it's just me"
"Bonnie, what do you want?"
"No, not over the phone, meet me in the park, by the lake just after 7"
"Fine" they hang up

"I wonder when she'll get here" Ron says to Rufus as he waits for Bonnie
"OH RONNY!!" Bonnie calls as she runs up to him, he stands up and smiles. She runs up and wraps her arms around him, planting a kiss on his cheek
"Hey, hey hey"
"What?"

Kim, unaware that Bonnie is scheaming, walks towards the small lake in the park and spots Bonnie, her back is facing the redhead and as she moves towards the brunette, she sees Ron put his arm around her and they walk off. Kim decides not to back down and runs after them
"BONNIE!"
"Kim? What are you doing here?" Bonnie acts innocent
"You asked me here, said you had something to tell me"
"I did?"
"Bonnie, you... No. I just wanted to talk, I need someone to talk to" he looks at Kim "Someone who hasn't..."
"What? Hasn't what?"
"You know what, now that I actually thought about it, the only reason that I asked you, is because it thought it might get back at Kim, eventually, but forget it" he walks off, leaving the two girls stunned, Bonnie more than Kim.

In Japan, Yori has spent a few days in relaxation, but has come back to Yamanouchi school, she needs guidence
"Master Sensei"
"Ah, Yori. Welcome back"
"Thank you master. I must speak with you, it is a matter of my honor" the elderly master can see it is troubling her
"Come, come, we shall meditate on it"

"And that is the whole story" Yori lets her head fall "I have dishonored myself and my friends" Sensei strokes his beard
"That is troubling. I am very dissapointed in you. You have let down everything that I have trained you for"
"I need not know that it is my shame, but what can I do to make it right? If nothing else, return Kim Possible into Stoppable-san's arms"
"This is something they must work out for themselves"
"Please master. I am not here to accept my shame, I have done that. There must be something I can do"
"Hmmm. The ninja is quiet and stealth, they are in the shadows always. If you truly wish to help them, you must use your training to do this. I cannot help you" Yori stands up, bows and walks out.

Ron is dreaming... In his dream he and Kim are standing on a grassy field, looking into each other's eyes. The moon is shining in the background and they embrace, a deep and passionate kiss welds them together.

Kim resolves to let it lie and accept the fact that Ron will never take her back or so she tries to make herself believe and fails, so she decides to go with her life. Unknown to her, Ron does plan to take her back, he loves her to much to let her go forever. Part of him wants to let go, but he can't. But not wanting to look weak, he has decided to wait.

It isn't easy for them, the first few days Kim is back at school, seeing as they have so many classes together, but after a couple weeks, they get used to it. They just don't look at each other, or so Kim thinks. Actually, Ron almost can't stop staring at his ex. He feels the passion he felt for her when they started dating and longs to feel that passion again, he longs to touch her smooth skin, to stare into her mezmerizing eyes of hers.


Author's note: I've been writing this for a while and got other projects to do, so I'll prolly do no more than another two chapters, if that, so expect this to wrap up quick -ish.

Next (and probably final) chapter: Bonnie continues to make plays for Ron, who has had enough. He decides to Kim a chance to redeem herself, but Ron has no idea how to give her that chance, so he gets desperate and calls in a favour from someone he never thought he would have to speak to, for any reason