No Particular Reference

LeavesofMyself: Well... This one is more like a drabble than anything. I hope you enjoy it!

Lyrics: "Being Nothing" by Nightrage

Chapter Warning: Slight Angst, Suggested Abuse, Dark Theme

Chapter Rating: T

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~*~ Side by side, being nothing.

All dead inside.

Side by side, being nothing. ~*~

Starscream, despite his aloof apathetic-ness, his cowardly ways…. Despite his very nature…. Starscream had only one fear. Nothing. He feared nothing. He feared being surrounded so completely by nothing; he feared fading away into nothing, but most of all, the Second in Command and Air Commander of the Decepticon forces feared being absolutely nothing.

If thought about logically, it seemingly proved why the SIC acted about so abruptly, without thought, without reason. It was not that he wanted the power that being the leader of the Decepticons brought, though it was a rather nice plus, it was that he did not want to become nothing, become useless.

He needed the attention, needed something to prove that he was still capable of something, anything… failure was only proof that he was not becoming meaningless. It pushed him. Fueled him. It was his life line, his only thread to sanity. He could not become nothing, it was not an option for him.

It didn't matter if Megatron beat him on a daily basis. It did not matter that he was called a 'fool' or that he had 'failed' yet again. Not to him. They were not insults. Those words were his blessings. It meant he was something, even if he was a nuisance, to which he was very aware he was; even if it meant disappointing Megatron numerous times… It was still a blessing. Even when he was latterly torn apart, it was still a Primus sent blessing. He was good for something. Even if it was only to provide his lord with a stress relief….

He would not allow himself to become nothing. It just wasn't an option…. He had to prove his creator wrong….. He would never become nothing, never be nothing.

To do so would be so completely mortifying to think.

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