Helpless

Disclaimer: I do not own Danny Phantom (even though I wished I did) Butch Hartman does. And I don't own the song 'Tourniquet', Evanescence does. Blah, blah, blah...on with the story.



Ch. 2- Tourniquet (suicidal actions)



Danny watched the reaccuring nightmare roll back in his head over and over again. The thoughts that wouldn't come now came. Why didn't I say no. No. No. No. Say it with me, Nnnnoooo. Was it that hard? Now that he thought about it, he really didn't fight that hard. Was it his fault? He didn't try to stop it. I tried, but he's bigger and stronger that me. 'You didn't try, you wanted it you little whore!' No, I didn't! 'Yeah, keep telling yourself that.' Just shutup!

Danny suddenly shot upright, his eyes darting. He saw the fact that he was in his room and calmed slightly. He jumped when the door creaked and three figures walked in. "Oh, good! Your awake Danny!" His mom walked over to his bed and put her hand on his shoulder. Danny cringed. She looked at him confused as his dad and Jazz came over. "Danny. What's wrong?" He didn't say anything, he just stared at them with haunted eyes. 'Why would they care about a little whore?' He looked away, trying to hold back tears. Jazz tried to touch him, but he pulled away. "Danny, what happened?" He couldn't anwser, the fear of being shunned took over. He turned his back to them and pulled his knees to his chest. He winced at the pain it brought him, but didn't care. It didn't matter, he was used, tainted and no one would care, not even himself. He bit his lip as he choked back sobs. But, after a moment subcombed to the effort and let the tears fall, letting the noises that adorned them escape from his throat. Why? Why didn't I fight back? This could have all been avoided if I hadn't been so stupid! 'Yet, you couldn't have. You can't fight destiny.'What kind of destiny is this?! The voice stopped, leaving his question unanwsered. He knew it could have been avoided, but it was too late. Now he was just a puppet in Vlads' game, not sure what to do next. He waited until his family left, and laid back, letting exhaustion overtake him, like he did Vlad.

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Dannys' senses sharpened slightly as he heard footsteps coming towards him, the noise just loud enough to arouse him out of sleep. He pretended to stay asleep, to find out who it was. After a moment, he recognised it to be his sisters'. "Danny, I don't know what happened and I'm not going to force you to tell me, but please, I just want to know what's wrong." She planted a kiss on his forehead and left. He usually would have wiped it off and said 'eww' but wasn't in the mood. He sat up and stretched, for a few seconds seeing spots before his vision cleared. He stood, stumbled slightly before gaining balance, and went intangible. He walked to the bathroom and phased through the door. He went tangible and locked the door, listening out to make sure no one was around. When he saw the coast was clear, he turned around and sat on the side of the bath tub. He turned the faucets so the water was warm before feeling it, the temperture was just right. He stood and began to undress, winceing every once awhile when his clothing rubbed against a cut or bruise. He turned his back to the door (because there was a mirror on it, and he couldn't bare looking at himself) and finished undressing, putting his dirty clothes in the laundry hamper. He then grabbed a towel and walked back to the bath tub, placing the towel on the toilet seat, and getting into the water. Dannys' tense body instintly relaxed, a small moan escaping as he settled. He layed his hed against the back of the tub, his eyes looking up at the two shelves hanging from the wall. The shelves held things like, soap and shampoo, but something else caught his attention. His eyes fixated on a razor. A razor set on one of the shelves that stood out, looking new. He pushed himself into a sitting position before standing up, grabbing it and laying back down. His eyes looked from his wrist to the razor. Wrist to razor, wrist to razor, and once again his gaze fixated on the razor. For a moment he twirled it in his hand and inspected it. He then gripped it in his hand firmly, pressed it lightly to his wrist, and in a quick motion pulled it across. His scalp tingled, and the hair on (almost) his entire body seemed to stand up. He looked at his wrist as a small white line appeared, before turning an almost unnoticable red. He gripped the razor again, but pressed it against his wrist much harder and slowly pulled it across (slanted horizontal), Once again a white appeared, only much bigger. The white line turned red, and after a moment, began to bubble over. The thick crimson liquid began to drip over his arm and into the bath tub. He resituated himself, pushing his legs against the other side of the tub, and placing his blood covered arm on his thighs. He watched as the water around him turned pink, then scarlet as the blood continued to flow. The next thing he knew, his vision blurred, and he felt light-headed. He let out a soft gasp before passing out, sinking under the crimson water.



I tried to kill the pain

but only brought more

I lay dying

and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal

I'm dying praying, bleeding, and screaming

am I too lost to be saved

am I too lost?



My God my tourniquet

return to me salvation

my God my tourniquet

return to me salvation



Do you remember me

lost for so long

will you be on the other side

or will you forget me

I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming

am I too lost to be saved

am I too lost?



My God my tourniquet

return to me salvation

my God my tourniquet

return to me salvation

I want to die!



My wounds cry for the grave

my soul cries for deliverance

will I be denied Christ

tourniquet

my suicide



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Kay that was chapter two! And thaks to all five of my reviewers, you guys rock! (Gawd, I sound like I've started a band and I'm thanking my fans 0_o) Well anyway, chapter three will hopefully beup soon!